That being said, hello! It's been a while.

I have been absent from deviantART for quite a while. But about 2 months ago or something I started lurking around, leaving a comment here and there again and catching up with what has changed on here while I was away. And boy, a lot has changed. But I think I am past that 'oh-dear-this-is-so-confusing'-stage.

I want to reconnect with you people so I'd like to know what's happening with you. Both in your life and dA-wise, anything you'd like to share. I've been so out of the loop lately that it was hard to grasp what others have achieved in this time and it seems to be a lot. ^kasumichan2003 is finally in Australia with *Bulbagarden, `synconi starts to study mathematics at Cambridge... exciting, really. I'm happy for you all.

In my life, not much has changed. I am still stuck where I was about a year ago and it's a real drag. I'm very lonely and I lost my will to create. I take my camera in my hands and feel pain and defeat.
Earlier this year I applied for several apprenticeships to become a professional photographer. I did not even get my applications back. I spent my last bits of money on having portfolios printed. Money gone to waste it seems. I think you can see why I am really discouraged about photography (I am looking at you, Patrick).
I pass time with volunteer work for the German Red Cross, photographing things for print and web publications, which I cannot publish here, sadly. And because that was everything I did (plus the already mentioned lack of creativity, willpower and inspiration), my activity on dA has decreased submission-wise too.
I am glad I have something to do but it's not really fulfilling. Assignments are scarce and I can be happy to get to do anything every 2 or 3 months. And it's really depressing to know I only get any form of photographic assignment because it's cheap for them to have one of their former volunteers photograph things for the facility. But ah well, I digress.
I still enjoy and adore photography with every fiber of my being. But when it comes to my own work... I don't know what to think about it. I lost any perspectives.

Either way, I hope you are all doing fine. Share something with me so I can be happy for other people at least.